I’ve tried to blog for awhile now under this title “Always Discovering Disorderly”, which played off the acronym “A.D.D” (which typically stands for Attention Deficit Disorder). I was making fun of my struggle with my chaotic, messy, unorganized tendencies. Recently, I’ve felt a need to talk about my journey I’ve been on. I’m on a search for the orderly.
I have always struggled with being a messy person. My family has actually built jokes around it — stereotypes, even. If it’s missing, it’s in my room. If it’s messy, I did it. If it needs to be remembered or kept track of… hah, funny, yeah right. For a long time I just went with it, made fun of it with them, but I’ve grown to hate it. I really do. It feels like an identity I can’t get rid of. Even if my family doesn’t notice, I’m working on it, and I’ve actually been making progress.
I started using a bullet journal in November 2017. It’s now February 2019 and it has made a big difference in my life. I’ve become more organized, and more functional as a person. It has given me a space where I can not only keep myself organized, but I can also reflect and find flaws that I want to work on improving or correcting. I have been exploring new ways to tackle my biggest issues and bring in new habits that I hope will benefit me in the long run.
So let’s talk. Let’s get better. Let’s get orderly.